So we are back

Well, An English one today , From when I got back from holiday , I have been in really depressive moods . Mainly when I'm alone .

First it's getting too cold and drowsy outside. Really depressing. It isn't the right time to be alone I guess. But hey , soon it will be spring and I'll be in lovely Spain , again. I ran out of money on my tanningsaloon membership card. I don't know if it's worthwhile to pay for my weekly sun rays. But it's a total relax thing, and I'll probably be there again on Thursday. To get my shot of lucky.

Second , when I am alone I get really down sometimes. It's a fierce struggle with myself sometimes , and some times are hard times. I get restless and all messed up in my head. Not good at all. Now that I learned to be open and spontaneous , it's a pity. So I am aware of being alone. I need company. Jk is coming to visit me next weekend and the day he bought his ticket it got better . I don't feel all alone now , it's like I woke up from some kind of hibernation.

Third , it is nice to look back at it , and somehow admit that I need people to be happy. It twists the idea of being independent another way round. Although I like to be on my own sometimes , for a larger period than normal people do. But alone is alone. There are a lot of parties starting as off last weekend, and there is a lot of people to see the coming weeks . And with a few drinks parties just go smoother. Socializing and talk about everything and nothing. Nice. I don't really like x-mass period. Surely not as a single, but that's the other side of the medal.

I started blogging again, normal way. HTML sucks , especially when I'm all tired of working.